Tuesday, February 26, 2013

Lessons Being Learned

Hello all,

I am writing this blog from my new laptop, wearing my new jeans from the Buckle, with brand spanking new Nike Shox on my feet, with my IPhone 4s sitting on my stomach. That is a lot things that I don't need. I stop today and am very thankful that I have been blessed with a good job, a great home, a family who loves me, and roommates who drive me crazy, but I wouldn't change any of it.  I couldn't pick better people to live with.  I don't feel like I have to compete with them, or be better than them.  I can just be me.  Its wonderful.

Also, I have been feeling very convicted lately about what I am living for.  I recently went through a very rough patch with one of my dearest friends.  God is teaching me, or at least I think this is what he is teaching me, that He is the only friend I need.  I have always wanted to have the closeness of people, instead of only relying on God's love.  It's not that I don't know that God loves me, its that I can SEE people on the earth who love me.  Well, that's just being selfish and stupid. Therefore I am working on relying only on God's love.


I will be returning to Texas tomorrow to celebrate one of my dearest friend's husband's graduation from BMT.  Remember how that was me not that long ago?  Yeah, I do too.  I am very excited to be going back and not be on the training side of the ordeal.  It will be interesting to see all the places that I dreaded while I was there, and to take a trip down memory lane.  My friend and I decided that every year, whether we knew anyone graduating or not, we were going to go to a graduation just to go back and see Lackland again.  Should be a fun tradition.



Till we speak again I remain

At Jesus' Knee

Tannisha

Saturday, October 27, 2012

I'm Back

Hello All!

It has been a while since I was able to post because I was gone all summer at BMT! I graduated with honors and then proceeded to tech school in Ft. Lee VA. I graduated from there on September 18th and then did 30 days of On The Job (OJT) at my duty station in Topeka.  God has truly blessed me with an awesome experience.  I am once again struck by how much He cares for me and kept me safe while I was gone.

I suppose some of you are wondering how boot camp was and what goes on there.  Well I can't really say much, but I can say that it was very difficult mentally and not as much physically.  I didn't care for boot camp but tech school was definitely much better.  I was very glad to come home though.  There is nothing better than getting a standing ovation in an airport, then catching a connecting flight to your "home" airport and then watching your mom run across the airport floor and give you a huge hug!  Have I mentioned I love my Mom?  Well if not, I do. :)


God has taught me some pretty interesting things since I left.  I was a stubborn little brat, and now I realized that God put me right where I needed to be in order to teach me that I have a lot of growing up to do. He is still teaching me grace and patience, I have neither of the two, but He was gracious enough to allow me to be a part in the salvation of 2 fellow flight members.  I witnessed them ask Jesus into their hearts and then get baptized.  I have had a chance to communicate with them via Facebook and both seem to still be living the life that God has called them to live.  Please pray for these two that they may remain strong in our Lord.


I also have begun my college experience.  I had originally thought that I was going to pursue nursing but the Lord has brought me to Criminal Justice. I am very excited to see what the possibilities this will bring.  My dream is to be a police officer, but that won't  be taking place till after I turn 21.


Anyways, I think that is all that I have for right now.  Thank you for all your prayers and encouraging words while I was gone.


Forever I remain
At Jesus' Knee,

Tannisha

Tuesday, May 22, 2012

New Adventures!

This will be my last post before I leave for BMT. 6 days till my life takes a turn.  Hopefully it is for the best. I know it will be difficult but God is faithful.  There are a couple of verses that I have been thinking a lot about recently and one of them is Jeremiah 29:11. It says: "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord. "Plans to help you and not to harm you. To give you a hope and a future." This verse has always meant a lot to me because even in our darkest times all we need to do is look to the heavens and God is there. He already has our trials planned out, and He knows how we will handle them, and He knows what His plan is.   Sometimes I wonder why God doesn't tell me what His plans for my life are, and then I realize that if He told me what they were then I wouldn't need to have faith that it will all work out for good.  I wouldn't be able to experience the incredible feeling to know that God is in control.  I wouldn't be able to know the depth of His love for me.  That is why I believe God doesn't tell us His plans. I will, however, trust Him with my life, because I know that whatever He does have planned it will be the very best.


The other verse that I wanted to share is Isaiah 40:31: "but those who hope in the Lord, will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles. They will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint." This has also been an encouragement to me because I know that when I go through trials and tribulations, if I hope in the Lord and believe in His goodness, my strength will be renewed.  I will be able to soar with the eagles. The song "In Christ Alone" says it well: "No power of hell, No scheme of man, can ever pluck me from your hand."  Nothing will be able to get me down when I allow Christ to hold me up.  That is what I am going to try to remember while I am at Basic Training this summer.  No one can bring me down when I allow Christ to hold me up.


That is all I have for now.  You will all hear from me in October most likely.

Till then I remain at Jesus' knee,

Tannisha


Tuesday, May 15, 2012

Love Is In The Air

It's official: I am hopelessly and completely, head over heels in love with my Savior Jesus Christ.  Today for my quiet time I read John 15 and I'm pretty sure that out of the 20some verses in the chapter, 17 are now underlined and written in my journal.  God is so good to me by how He gives me exactly what I need to read that day.

I would like to share some of the verses, and I hope that you will find as much encouragement in them as I did.
Verses 9-17 were the most powerful to me but especially verses 13-17. They say: "Greater love has no one than this: to lay one's life down for one's friend. You are my friends if you do what I command. I no longer call you servants, because a servant does not know his master's business. Instead, I have called you friends, for everything that I have learned from my Father I have made known to you. You did not choose me, but I chose you and appointed you so that you might go and bear fruit-fruit that will last-and so that whatever you ask in my name the Father will give you. This is my command: Love one another."


Those words were very powerful to me as I am entering a very different stage of my life that I have never experienced before.  God is taking me on a great adventure.  He chose me for this task. HE chose ME to help fulfill HIS PERFECT plan.  That is an extreme honor.  I love the part where Jesus says: "I no longer call you servants. You are my friends."  Those words are encouraging and mind blowing.  The Son of the Creator of the Stars, calls ME friend.  God has allowed us to know what His plan for the world is so that we may go and bear fruit.  We get to be witness' for our Lord.

I got to have a really good talk with some great friends this weekend and I was very encouraged.  A lot of things were cleared up in my mind.  God is faithful to give me people in my life who can help me see life at a different angle than the one that I have.

I am so in love with my Father and His Son.  How can I not be?  I was blind but now I see. I was lost but am now found.  As I read my Bible today I couldn't help but shed a few tears. They were of course happy tears, but I am still in shock at how no matter how hard I fought against God, He continued to fight for me. Hardcore.  God was triumphant in my life and I know that He will continue to fight the battle for my heart.  Satan has been cruel to me lately by filling my head with lies that I am worthless, and that I don't mean anything to anyone.  But God has been counteracting those lies with truths.  That I do mean the world to God.  That I am worth His Son dying on the cross so that I am able to live eternally with Him in heaven.  Those are things that I have struggled with my whole life.  Why would Jesus die for lowly me? Why would he pay the ultimate sacrifice for me?  Why go through that much pain for a wretch? I can answer all those questions with one word: LOVE.  That is why he suffered and died.  Steven Curtis Chapman wrote a song called "Something Crazy."  There is a line in the song that says: "Sometimes love makes you do, something crazy."  That couldn't be more true.  I know that I have done some crazy things for love, and I know that Christ dying that painful death for me was definitely crazy, but that's what love make you do.

A lot of this post has been about love. I don't care who you are, there is nothing more important in this world than realizing just how much Christ loves each and every one of us.  It's more than we can explain, but at least attempting to know how much he cares for us, helps us know how to care for each other.  We are called to "Love each other just as Christ loves us."  That is what I am working on.  Loving all people, no matter how much they frustrate me, or spit in my face.  Repaying them with love is what I will do.


Remaining at Jesus' knee,

Tannisha






Friday, May 11, 2012

Smiles Are The Best.


I can't even begin to explain how wonderful it is to hear my nephews running and laughing through our house.  It is truly fantastic.  When I walk in the door I am instantly bombarded with two adorable children telling me they missed me and giving me hugs and kisses.  They are my world.  God has blessed with a crazy beautiful family.

Today I have been packing, and I realized how much stuff I have that I don't use.  I'm young and I have accumulated a lot of nothing.  I tried to throw out some stuff, but every item I came to held some kind of value to me.  They are all treasures in my eyes.  That made me wonder how much heavenly treasures I have stored up.  All the things that are sitting in boxes in my room will turn to dust in the future, but what I do now to further the Kingdom of God, is what is going to last for eternity.  It became very apparent to me that I haven't done much to help the good work that the Lord has asked me to do.  It is my goal from this day forward, to store up heavenly treasures instead of earthly treasures.  When I make it to judgement day I want God to point out all the good that I did for Him and to say to me, "Well done, my good and faithful servant."

I want to encourage anyone who may be struggling with sins that they have committed in the past.  If you give your life to Christ then your past mistakes are forgiven and you become a new creation in Christ.  God will cast your sins as far as the East is from the West.  He will be faithful to you and stand by your side even when you screw up again.  No matter what we do in our lives, nothing is to big for God to forgive. He will fight for you and He loves you no matter what.  It took me a long time to realize that I needed to trust that what God says He will do, He means it. You have to trust Jesus.

On a very happy side note, one of my dear friends got engaged today!!! He fiance and her truly are a match made in heaven, and I am so glad that God brought them together :)

Only 17 days till I leave for BMT. Still excited but also nervous. But God will be with me through it all.

My challenge for you today, is that you smile. Just smile at someone walking by. A single smile can light up someones entire day. If you know me personally you know that it is hard for me to stop smiling.  Its just something I like to do.  I have a smile that people like to call my "imp look" and its usually when I have just done something mischievous or I am about to do something mischievous.  My friends, I'm sure, have come to dread this look. ;)


Anyways that is all I have for tonight. God bless.


Smiling at my Lord's knee,

Tannisha

Thursday, May 10, 2012

God Is So Cool!

Wooo!! What an awesome last couple of days I have had.  I got to catch up with some wonderful friends which was much needed! Such an encouragement to me. :)  God is truly wonderful.

As I sit here and write I feel the need to tell you about what I see my near future holding.  I am enlisted in the United States Air Force and I am very proud of it.  I have had a lot of support from friends and family which has helped immensely.  This has always been a dream of mine and now that I have actually done it it seems like a dream that its happening!  I leave for BMT (Basic Military Training) in 18 days.  It is very exciting, but scary at the same time.  I don't want to leave my family and my new friends who have been wonderful, but I am very ready to start out on this Great Adventure that God is taking me on.  I want to be a light to those I am training with and be able to help our great nation fend off all enemies.  I will not be able to post on this blog till I come back, but I will post as soon as I can when I get back to let you all know how I am doing and how it all went.  I will be gone for 4 months.  Not too terribly long, but long enough to miss a lot of people.

I have had a difficult time adjusting to this idea of leaving, but God has been faithful to me and is constantly reminding me that He will be with me through it all.  I never would have thought that 4 months ago I would be able to sit here and write this from my heart.  But again God is faithful and fought for me. Hardcore.  He won me back and I am forever grateful.  I know it will not be an easy road that I will be taking, but I know that with the help of the Lord, I will be able to stand on the highest mountain and I will succeed.

I would also like to mention that I would greatly appreciate any and all prayers that you all pray.  Prayers for strength and endurance would be the biggest that I could ask for.  Strength to stay fully devoted to God, as I will not have much free time to really study His Word. I will be reading it and savoring it as much as I can, but somehow I don't think that Drill Instructors are really gonna let me take time from my training for me to read. So it will have to be on my free time.  But I will do my best to stay faithful.  Pray for endurance, as this is not an easy training time.  It will be taxing physically, spirtitually, and emotionally.  I am a big family person, and being away from them will very difficult for me.  A lot of my family's birthdays fall within the months that I will be gone, and it is difficult for me to miss them, but its only for a season. As my wonderful Mother has said multiple times, "This too, shall pass." Thank you Mom, I know that will be helpful to remember through these months.


All the above being said, I have really in the last couple of days found that I am very ready to go train.  I know for some of you reading this that I have talked at great lengths about how much I will miss everyone and that is true, I am still very excited about this event in my life.  When I joined the military it was for very selfish reasons, and after I made the decision to give my life to Christ, I was very anxious to see how God was going to use me in this area.  But I know that He will finish the good work that He started in me.  He will use me in a big way I know, and for that I am very excited!  I want to be a witness for my Lord.  Don't forget to pray for me! :)

That is about all I have for tonight.  Blessings to you all!

Remaining at my Lord's knee,

Tannisha

Tuesday, May 8, 2012

What A Day

Today was such a roller coaster of emotions.  I began the day feeling very discouraged and that what I do isn't worth anything. I opened my Bible and was flooded with encouragement from my Father.  I got to talk to a very dear friend of mine for a while this afternoon, and I get to see my best friend tomorrow( it has been a week. Too long).

My Savior is so faithful to encourage me daily.  I am going to be leaving for basic training for the U.S. Air Force on the 29th of May.  This also brings up a lot of mixed feelings.  I am excited about starting my career and stepping out into my future, but I am also sad because I will be leaving friends and family.  God has been teaching me that no matter where I go or how far away I am from the people I love, He is always right beside me.  He loves me more than they ever will, and He has said, "Never will I leave you or forsake. So that you may boldly say, I will not fear what man can do to me."  I am nervous about beginning my training because I know that it will be physically and emotionally challenging. But I have something that some of my instructors may not have. I have the strength of the LORD and for that I am eternally grateful. God is so faithful to remind me every day that I am His precious jewel and He will not let me out of His reach!


As I am leaving for a few months I won't be able to post as often. Actually, I won't be able to post at all till I come back.  My prayer request is that God will give me strength to endure the hardships that are coming, the peace to know He is near, and to be a witness for my Lord.  He is all I want to serve.  I want people to look at me and know that I have Jesus.  God Almighty is working in big ways and I know that He will use my story to be an encouragement to other people.  I am so excited to be a part of the work that He is doing in our world.


At my Lord's knee,

Tannisha